In the words of a psychic I saw on Sunday: "Everything is in divine and perfect order"
You'll all be happy to know that I'm sick of this.
I'm going to change this. Everything happens for a reason, and I just need to understand what lesson there is to be taken away from this.
So what, my life is shitty? It's never been a competition and it never will be again. I have my problems.
It's not what you do with your problems, it's how you plan on getting over everything and moving forward.
So what, I was really suicidal? I'm not saying I'm completely over it, but everyone has been. It's not about what you feel towards yourself, it's whether or not you're going to be able to get yourself out of your situation.
So what, I don't eat? Not that it's normal to not eat - it's a method of control. I'm proud of myself for realizing that it's a method of control. Now that I'm working on controlling the rest of my life - maybe my eating will get better?
So what, I've had a tough road? I've talked to survivors, and I will be one.
I am not a coward.
I am not going to hide.
I'm going to be me, and I'm going to do this right.
Guess what I did today?
I got a job today, so on my way home I bought a LARGE iced capp and a refillable timmies mug.
...I smiled all the way home.
Not only am I drinking something completely against my eating patterns, but I'm saving the environment as well as getting a FREAKIN JOB. holyshit.
This is a turning point. Follow me if you want, get annoyed with me if you don't want to watch me.
I'm going to turn this around. It's my life.
I'm good without the statements. Let me be myself <3
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