So I have a friend, and she's one of my best friends. We've had our rough days, but I love her to death. When I'm with her though, I feel like starvation isn't the answer - like food is good. And I feel bad about not eating.
I was with her all day today...
Now I'm getting into another swing of ana, with liquid fasts instead of water ones - trying to ease myself back into this once more.
I feel like if i spend less time with her i can fast more, but I can't do that :/ I love her company too much.
AND I FINALLY FIT INTO HER CLOTHES! thank the lord .
when I'm with Ryan all I think about is not eating, and I never do - I refuse food whenever I'm near him.
I might be seeing him on Sunday, so I'm trying to show him how much weight I've lost. I REALLY need a scale though.
The next time I weigh myself I want to have penalites for how long I have to fast because of the weight.
I'm tired of this, but I love it all the same.
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