You Make Me Wanna Die - The Pretty Reckless

Take me, I'm alive
Never was a girl with a wicked mind
But everything looks better
When the sun goes down

I had everything
Opportunities for eternity
And I could belong to the night

Your eyes, your eyes
I can see in your eyes, your eyes

You make me wanna die
I'll never be good enough
You make me wanna die
And everything you love
Will burn up in the light

And every time
I look inside your eyes
You make me wanna die

Taste me, drink my soul
Show me all the things
That I shouldn't know
And there's a blue moon on the rise

I had everything
Opportunities for eternity
And I could belong to the night

Your eyes, your eyes
I can see in your eyes, your eyes
Everything in your eyes, your eyes

You make me wanna die
I'll never be good enough
You make me wanna die
And everything you love
Will burn up in the light

And every time
I look inside your eyes
(Burning in the light)
Make me wanna die

I'll die for you, my love, my love
I'll lie for you, my love, my love
(Make me wanna die)

I'll steal for you, my love, my love
(You make me wanna die)
I'll die for you, my love, my love
We'll burn up in the light

Every time I look inside your eyes
I'm burning in the light
I look inside your eyes
I'm burning in the light
I look inside your eyes
You make me wanna die






Alot happened at once...I had some people over for a party/hangout. and I already knew I wanted to makeout with this guy Andrew...it's complicated but true. 
I drank too much, it hit me harder because I didn't eat anything, 
I ran off to my room because I got really upset...The selfish little me wanted to see who would bother to come up and check to see if I'm okay. Rachael did, and then Andrew came up, and Carling came up too. And I had already started crying to Rachael about Ana, and now Carling and Andrew know...which I didn't want to ever happen.  ...Ryan didn't come up to see me (he said he thought I wouldn't want to see him)
I took 15 advils just because Ryan would hate it (I don't know either), and I finished cutting FAT on my stomach...Fuck it hurt. I smoked 6 cigs that day. and 5 the next.
And two more cuts on my arms, forcing me to now wear long-sleeve shirts in the 35 degree weather. Fml. 


So me and my friend Rach and him went to sleep upstairs we both ended up in the same bed as Andrew - then she left...me and Andrew had already made out by this point...
let's just say handjob for him...basically fingering for me (more rubbing)
the point is that we got to the point when he asked me if we wanted to just have sex. I had to say I couldn't do it...and then things got all awkward and shit -__-






Now I just don't know what the fuck is wrong. I don't ever want to eat or touch food again. I hate it, and I honest to God have no desire to eat food. I think Ana finally won.
Btw, I started texting Ryan after he left, and I reread those texts in the morning - I was talking about Ana like she was a real person....
creepyshit.












Now I'm a mess, but I have a new faveourite song.